I was sitting there, being alone. Kinda bored, no one to play with. Then I see him! He is with the other kitty! They are playing just like we did. I wonder if she knows I was just there a week ago. I wonder if she even cares. I see them so happy. I watch, I don’t move. I don’t want them to see me. I just sit there and watch. I feel something that comes out of my eyes and it’s wet. I just want to run away but I don’t want them to see me. I miss the fun we had. I miss him making me feel happy. Now he has moved on to make another kitty happy. Damn tomcats, they just move on with problems. I always told my kittens don’t be a tomcat!
I must’ve fallen asleep because when I awoke, they were gone. I see another cat; he wants to play. I say, “OK, let’s go play.” While playing with him, I just think of the other tomcat. I haven’t even known him that long. Why is he even in my thoughts? He has a new kitty and I am old news. I close my heart and just go on. It’s time to just go through the motions. He wants me to play with other kitties – that’s just what I will do.
While playing with other kitties, I still miss him so. I have no idea why. It’s been forever since I’ve seen him. He is too busy with her. Lucky kitty. I hope she realizes what she has. I could not be the kitty for him. I hope he finds the right one. He deserves some one special.
Meanwhile, I am finding tons of tomkitties to play with. None of them compare to him. Not sure if I will ever find a tomcat that wants to stick around. I have been alone before. I can do it again. I am getting older, I can feel it. I can’t chase the squirrels as much as I used to. When I dream, I am back with that guy that fed me. I felt so safe with him. If only I could find him again. He said I would be ok. He didn’t understand he left me hungry and cold. Searching for someone to make it right. No one can be him. No one can take care of me like him. I just keep running until I find him again. I am not sure if I will ever see him again.
I wonder if he knows he left me behind. That I am just searching for someone to just love me like he did. I would do anything to just see him again.