The thunder rolls….

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As lay here listening to the thunder and the rain. I want to rewind time. I want to be on your balcony watching the storm roll in. I want to sitting at the table eating dinner and talking about nothing. I just want to go back. I no I cant and I no you don’t want to go back. You have a new life that I am not part of. I feel like I go forward 2 steps then back 3. Not ready to move on thought I was but night ended with me in tears. I just cant replace you. I don’t want to.

I guess I was hoping you would realize that you want me in your future. That you didn’t want to leave me behind. I don’t want anyone else but you. I no you don’t want to hear that. You want me to move on and stop hurting. Its not that easy. I am not ready to let you go. You left to soon. I wanted more time. Then again I would never be ready to say good by.

I never thought I would fall so hard. I fell like a baby bird learning how to fly. Maybe because I liked you for so long. I just felt so safe and happy with you. You can push me away try to get me to hate you. I just want you more. I am hoping that you realize you miss me and want me in your future. I can only hope in time you realize you need me too. I will never give up hope. There is no replacement for you. There is one 1 you and you are the only one I want. I will continue on with my life with out you.

Praying you will miss me and want me back in your life. Praying I will wake up to the text good morning beautiful. That was the way I no you ended us. I woke up with no text. I cried all the way to work. I realized you had ended us. You made the decision on your own. I didn’t get a say. You want me to move on and stop hurting. Its not that easy. I got no say in it. I got no choice. You made the decision with out me. I hope you change your mind and miss me. Until then I will go on with my life without you in it. I will not let you go. What we have is to strong you will see in time.

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